Saturday, July 29, 2006
i seem to have lots of thing to blog about
but i just don't seem to be able to write it down in here
everything seem stuck in my mind
the ifs are hard to answer
this i really swear
in our life, we are always troubling with the what ifs
and in my, i always dont seem to be able to answer them
am stuck with lots of what if...
Friday, July 28, 2006
i was standing there looking.
sitting there looking
then all of a sudden it all felt weird
i knew i should not think too much
i knew i should not even look
but i just cant help it.
then all of a sudden
everything just started coming back returning back
it felt really weird
i wasnt sad, really.
but my heart just felt something wrong.
then it all came back to me again.
that this is what i left in God's hand
when i was thinking to myself
thinking about all this
God. Yes, God again appeared and spoke to me
He reminded me
He reminded me about my prayers
He left me speechless when He came into my thoughts
He left me staring into the sky,
searching high and low for Him.
i really wish to run to him,
to tell him how i feel
though he would know how i feel now,
but i just have the urge to run to Him
and pour out everything. and i mean EVERYTHING.
now as i sit here,
i am set aback to think
i am thinking about whether i am having enough faith
whether everything i prayed for would be truly answered
yes i know how of litter fiath i have...
i know the time is not right
i know it isnt time yet for everything
but sometimes i wish it would all happen today
i wish it would all happen now.
yes, i know i am impatient
but... i just cant help it
sometimes i really dont understand what i am thinking
i dont uderstand why i do the things i do
maybe thats why, God is always guiding me through this path i walk
now, i cant imagine how my life without God would be
i cant imagine how i would survive without his love
Guess without My heavenly father's love
my world would be so cold
so filled with icy touch
I was told once in my dreams by God
He whispered to me in the dark corner of my room
in the place i go for refuge
he said this and i would always remember,
"no matter what, i am here"
yes, i don't know why,
but i can never forget wat he told me
these were the precious words that he gave me when i was asleep
this was the precious words that would always linger in my heart forever
yes. and i guess, i can use these words to comfort me today
FOR NO MATTER WHAT
God will always be here for me.
Thursday, July 27, 2006
it is all just in the word
"misuderstandings"
nothing more nothing less.
don really bother now.
anyway chatted with the girls
kids these days are really fortunate
i mean really
this world is getting really materialistic.
to think that a primary school kid can have bettr phone then us
and even mp4 when we are still stuck with our mp3
gosh. i feel so so poor all of a sudden
this world is changing real fast
when we were in primary sch
pager is the cool and "in" thing
and now just 10 year past,
handphone is a normal thing
now even primary 1 kid own a better phone then me.
3G phones..
so lets think. how bout another 10 years?
what would be the "in" thing?
i know for sure it wouldnt be the handphone anymore
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
all those were all so surface
the once perfected picture seem to fade away
its weird how i don feel much
i did pray last night.
it was kind of peaceful but yet kind of weird
i don't really know what to do
i dont wish to say a word. really.
all i ask is to be back to where it use to be
where the picture was all so perfect
please give me back this perfect picture
please all i ask for you Lord.
ok?
Sunday, July 23, 2006
i spoke to Lord for the past fews days
as i sat there communicating with my heavenly father
HE gave me a revelation.
HE sat me thinking about alot of stuff
HE made me question myself
and there I knelt quietly asking myself
how the story of the star began
how i pulled through everything
then there i gave the answer
it is all by the grace of God
it is all by the power of my almighty God
i asked from him a tiny request
and true enough he replied to me
all he told me was the word trust
TRUST in HIM
then there i knelt and remebered how i trusted in him
how i put all my fears and worries in his hands
how i lift all my burdens into his hands
how all my prayers were answered
then now as i sat here typing this,
i am having this peaceful feeling
the feeling of assurance
somehow i feel God is here by my side looking at all that i have typed
it does sound creepy
but yet it is a great feeling.
knowing that God is always around you, always by your side
when the night gets dark
when you feel so alone
you have HIM by your side
though you cant see him, let alone touch him
but yet you could feel his presence in your heart
and when you close your eyes
all your burdens and worries are gone
for God took it away from us
and allow us to have a apeaceful sleep.
it is all in the heart.
all the love HE shower us with.
a simple question that i ponder in my mind
he answers them and assured me
God is really our almighty God
He knows my fears and my desires
He knows them all
Now i don have much to fear
even if the worst would have to happen
i know for sure my Lord would be there for me
i know for sure he would stood by me
and not leave me alone...
a friend i found..
i am still in the midst of my project
preparing for presentations.
doing my stats tutorial which
comes to remind me of how badly i would do for stats
anyway today church service is truly amazing
i did not regret going today
today was exceptionally great. no words can decribe those feelings
i drag my feets to church today
feeling so tired and all
i knew saturn tried tempting me
but too bad, he failed big time.
cos there i was in church.
enjoying myself.
now i really believe what people use to say
"if you dont feel like going to church,
it is a time that you must go to church"
and am happy that i remembered this
and remain faithful.
